$20,000 for a Piece of Paper

Why does school have to be soo annoying this time of year. I mean, I'm starting to really consider why anyone even goes to college. How much does it cost? Like $20 G's minimum maybe. I could travel in Asia for a decade on that sort of money. Do I really need to spend four, five, or maybe six years of my life to obtain a piece of paper that says I'm credible when comes to the Bible/Theology. Please, I'm just beginning to tap into this keg--the Word. In reality, can anyone really teach you theology? I want to know what "I" believe and why "I" believe it. This is a process that's going to take the better part of a lifetime. But, I'm committed to this journey called life. God has plans, I make choices (some good and some bad). Don't even get me started on Calvinism. I could write an entire book on why I'm not a Calvinist (TULIP head), why I'm not an Arminian, or a Fundy, or a separatist, blah, blah, blah.

I just want to get back to the very basics of why I'm here. The relational aspect of this idea we call the Gospel. The real-life, experiential, spiritual idea that is lived out in everyday situations. God is constantly placing me in situations and testing me to see how I respond. I fail Him soo much it's ridiculous. But, you know what, my heart is sold for Him. I have a passion for people and I just want to represent Him and His cause. This life is soo short. You cannot waste time and I've already wasted too much as is.

I've been frustrated this week because of future plans. I have several ideas out there. I would prefer to go back to Colorado for the summer, but I have to purchase a vehicle (preferably a used Toyota 4Runner, Amen?) due to the fact that my car was totaled back in early September. Anyways, Redcloud is volunteer and I have to save a heckuva lot of cash to pay for my bills, gas, living expenses, etc. while I'm out there. Then, I received an e-mail today from a guy from an organization called LeaderTreks. They do adventure-based wilderness missions trips (exactly what I have a passions for). Those organizations are few and far between. So, I have this opportunity, but it's faith-based. I know that God can and will meet my needs, but I'm so dumb when it comes to trusting Him in regards to finances. So, basically what I'm saying is--I need to get over myself and trust Him completely. "Don't worry about tomorrow, because there are enough worries to deal with today." Like people dying and going to Hell. Ugh, I'm an idiot. I need to MAN Up and show people what Christ can do when I am 100% sold out for Him.

I love you Adonai! May I never forget what You've done for me!